Two words that are seemingly prevalent to our surroundings right now; perhaps personally or globally, or both.

Drama

Something I wrote in Feb 2010:

Got Drama?

What's it giving you? What does your drama, be it: health, money or relationship issues; not loving life, not loving yourself or having writer’s block GIVE you?

Take a deep breath and look at it from another point of view. What does Your drama give you?

Still as relevant as when I wrote it.

Everything in my life is here because I made a choice. There is no blame in that, only taking responsibility as the creator of my life. If I’m not responsible, if I blame myself or others, then I feel that sends out a message to all of my being saying, “I’m not a real creator, because somebody else has put this shitty or difficult situation here.” Likewise if I give thanks to others for something that I created, that sends the same message: “I’m not a real creator, because these blessings have come from somewhere outside of me.”

I’ll repeat: Everything in my life is here because I made a choice. To breathe with that, to accept it and to live it is a true blessing! It means I can make new choices! Whatever I want.

Choices are made out a desire to have a specific experience. Sometimes consciously, sometimes not. When I have something in my life that I don’t particularly like or enjoy (eg: drama) I ask, “What is this experience giving me? Do I want to continue this experience, or am I ready for a new choice?”

Sometimes answers never come, and that’s fine...though a little infuriating to my mind which likes to “understand” : )

It’s about accepting my current situation, recognising my choice to experience it, and exercising my prerogative to make a new choice if I want to.

Deconstruction

In my own personal experience of Awakening it took me a long time to accept the deconstruction. It took me longer to realise something flamingly obvious: from the ashes we build anew.

Things personally or globally deconstruct because they are old, unserving and unsuitable for the New Energy which we are now in. Sometimes you have to take something apart in order to rebuild it in perfect form. This is not a bad thing. “Bad” “Good” - they’re just labels!

For me, it was necessary to be shook to my core. Shaky. Shaky. Shaky. Getting rid of the built up Makyo (bullshit). I needed to be stripped bear of my structures and identities in order to finally surrender to my True Self. In talking to like-hearted friends I’ve discovered that I wasn’t alone in choosing the “extreme” route.

In MY total deconstruction zone, ground zero, I was able to reconnect with parts of me that’d been separated for a long time. This experience forced me to begin truly letting go of the old, so that I could rebuild : )

If your house is demolished in a storm and you have to rebuild it, would you do it exactly as it was? Or would you upgrade? Over time, I upgraded : )

Such extremes are not needed for everyone, I was simply in a very stuck, stagnant place and a big shake up was the best and most efficient way to get energies flowing again.

Last year my friend spoke to me about a dream she’d had. She was in a building with friends of hers when the whole building started collapsing. It fell around her, tumbling and crumbling, knocking down those she’d been there with, but never knocking her down. In fact, she hadn’t been hit at all. A little shaken, but not injured.

Speaking from a place very deep within me, I said, “See, things can fall apart without you getting hurt.”

Then we looked at each other, both impressed by my words and said, “Wow!”  : )

It is easy to make a choice of how you want things in your life to change. Effortless, easy and painless, or the opposite extreme? I’ve now experienced both and the first is definitely preferable. : )